I went here for major behavioral issues including physical violence and defiance and lashing out, I was sent here by my dhs case worker and had to live here for an estimated 8 months. They treated you like a wild animal, if you lashed out they would surround you with 6 staff and essentially hold you like a straight jacket and I have literal trauma from it because of this practice they did. I had my issues I know this but when I was kicked out due to constant behavioral issues and lashing out I was sent to my brother who took me in as a last resort before juvenile detention, and to this day at 16 years old 5 years after I lived here Iāve learned more from my 26 year old brother then I could ever learn there. To all the case workers and government employees I would highly recommend you reach out to family about these issues or find other options for these kids because it is sad to see kids go through such trauma because they donāt know how and canāt control their emotions. I want to make this very clear that Iām not throwing strays at the staff who had to do those practices, Iām talking about the higher ups that are making hundreds of thousands of dollars who donāt know a god damn thing about what kids go through there and they use shady methods to control and punish kids like locking them in āisolation roomsā that are locked and have cold hard floors and walls that echo with the slightest noise and they sit there and watch you suffer until you calm down, but you donāt calm down because your locked in a small box scared for whatās next. Please please never put your foster children here it doesnāt help. I also forgot to mention a few things, when I talk about the man handling they were allowed to do it wasnt just uncomfortable in the moment, I still to this day get panic attacks at night about my chest feeling tight and I canāt breathe like Iām back here being smashed in by two staffs knees, I also have permanent back trauma and jump whenever even my own brother touches my back without me knowing itās him. I need you guys to know this isnāt something I want more kids to go through because itās had a lasting impact on me that will never go away. St Maryās you guys better not mess up and get yourself into a lawsuit regarding standard procedures because I will be there to testify...
Ā Ā Ā Read moreThey abused me. Im 21 now but was there when i was 12 and they will put me a little tiny 12 year old in the most painful holds. 4 staff and a mat is what i called it. Two staff get on both sides of you hold your arms outwards and suspending you in the air chest facing down while pressing their knees into the sides of your ribs making it hard to breathe. One staff is behind you sitting on your calfs whith your knees touching the ground, and a staff in front of you holding a matt around your face and i was throwing up, Squirming helplessly and all the Squirming did was make them press their knees into the sides of my chest harder and harder. When i first arrived there they had us attened gym in which at the end we go to the locker room and where consequenced for not showering naked with the whole group in a open group of showers. I refused for a month to shower untill everyone else had finished and then they started consequencing me. I did everything in my power to turn this place upside down after that. In constant mania from the dehumanizing, abuse and mental games they would rid on you. I did everything to get kicked out and it was not easy to do so but eventually after 5 long months of hard work š i got sent to juvenile detention DEL much better there. Ultimately a month passed and I was getting sent to military school where I can say was a 1000 times better than this place we could actually shower in individual showers with curtains. And St. Mary's wanted to keep me for 3 years so in the time that I had spent there for 4 months I had gotten sent to military school and graduated in a year and a 1/2. Yes abuse was present there as well but its honestly sad to be able to admit a level of abuse in one place is better than the previous. The system did us kids so wrong, i had a good thing going for me before secure transport showed up to my freedom base program day center and took me away to...
Ā Ā Ā Read moreMy name is Dean Brumble but when I first came to st Mary's in 1969 I was Dean Morris I was an unwanted child of an unfit mother who abandoned me at juvenile hall for being hyperactive today you call it adhd I sent 3 months in juvenile hall then I was transferred to st Mary's this was back when the priest was molesting some of the boys I wasn't one of them but my friend Allen was for the most part it wasn't to bad the food was great some of the treatment back then wasn't the best like one time the councilor heard talking I took the blame so the whole dorm wouldn't get punished I was made to kneel on my hands at the bottom of the stairs all night after 3months my family came and got me they were moving to California then in 1972 I was sent back to st Mary's again this time for a longer stay 2 years after about a year they had opened up a group home in forest Grove called st Anthony's achievement center run by Ken kiesil and his wife two of the best people I ever knew I ran away from there in Oct 1973 I wish I would have stayed but I was homesick went back home to California and a year later my mom kicked me out again I was almost 17 moved back to Oregon hot a full time job got a place with my older brother finished high school class of 1976 Rex Putnam all in all I cherish my time at st Mary's met alot of guys that were like brothers to me and some great staff that cared more about me then my mom ever did so thank you saint Mary's for the memories I'm 67 years old now memories...
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