Old Saint Mary's Cathedral — Attraction in San Francisco

I am reading an old note while in my place in the Netherlands of an encounter with mother Mary in this church while praying and communicating (prayer is communication ) with Lady Mary in a time I was an alcoholic trying to get to the reasons I was drinking so much

I know this church because some years ago my daughter lived in Livermore not far from San Francisco and one day I passed and went in

the note says : give up your desires, your desire brings you in the world of death and the dead, that is the future, the future is the time that is not here now , it does not exist and it will never be because the future will always be the time that is not here now

you are drinking because you suffer and want to get (to throw) yourself in a happy non suffering future , but this future world is an illusory world , you are not there now amd you will never bé there because it does not really exist , only in your mind as a fantasy

be here, simple , with your feelings and thoughts you have now, however painfull they may be

the question I asked at the time: how can I give up my desire (to be happy and at peace with my self and my life) , because I do feel this longing now!?

the answer: by not resisting or fighting your desire now , feel your desire and do not travel with it in a dreamt (wanted) future , but follow its tracks BACK , into the past, one moment ago , an era ago , to the place where your desire now originates and get it out with root and all by just looking at it , where does it come from , now?

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After this meeting with this intelligence i called Mary at the time i forgot about it and went on with my life , i think it was January 2015 (now it is Eastern 2018)

since some time now (maybe some months) the craving need to drink has left me and since some weeks i am totally honest with my self and others amd I left on a dark cold day my husband and daughter knowing I would never come back , and I went into a hotel and a day later I found my new life just by asking the hotel owner if she knew a place for me to stay , after asking one more lady I found my dream place

my life changed in a few days from a woman stuck in her unhappy marriage and boring life, into a life wherein I am living my childhood dream, with horses and a dog and chicken , on a farm , just 30 minutes away from my former home , and my husband doesn’t sabotage me anymore but he genuinely supports now me in this new happy life , I am happy for the first time in my life working my ass of from 8 am untill 7 pm , after years of being depressed and ill on my bed

I am fully alive now , and I just read this words again in a little booklet I didn’t even know I wrote them , and now I do understand

happiness is realizing what it is you really really really want , I never really wanted to be depressed and drunk and ill , I never really wanted to be a shouting angry frustrated mother and wife , I never really really wanted to be a carrierwoman , rich and beautifull as I was in my so-called highlife, I just wanted to lbe free as a bird , to be working with horses and dogs and living with animals and real truthfull people, and making this household a place of love and prosperity for all the creatures that live here and come to visit and I don’t exclude one fly or ant 🐜

I live here in this beautifull nature at the sea for free in return for the work I do and I am almost 57 and I feel myself like I felt myself when I was 21 living my own life , from my heart and my mind only , not listening to media and news, and marketing and companies and new age gurus , just listening to my beautifull heart ❤️ like your hearts are beautifull because they are exactly as mine

I was very feeble and when I came here a few weeks ago I could not carry a stack of hay for the horses , my husband had to do it and now I am running even with it, just for fun , the horses 🐎 and dog 🐕 running after me, and I never felt so...

Old Saint Mary's Cathedral is San Francisco Landmark 2 and California Historical Landmark 810.

It was built in 1854 and rebuilt in 1909 after it was damaged by the 1906 Earthquake and Fire.

It was the first Roman Catholic Cathedral in California. It is the second oldest church in San Francisco still in use. In 1891, a new St. Mary's Church was built on Van Ness Avenue to replace Old St. Mary's Church as the cathedral.

The brick building is Victorian Gothic in style. The stone foundations were cut to order in China. The bricks came from New England. The original design included a two hundred foot spire which was never built.

The built tower is ninety feet high. The plinth, embrasure caps, buttresses, tower door, mouldings and crockets, as well as the corbels of the windows, are of cut stone. The pinnacles and parapet of the tower are also...

I'm heartbroken and distraught after my experience today. I had a few minutes and wanted to light a candle for my family. After I paid the $5, the man who guards the candles racially profiled me. He interrupted my prayer not once, but a second time frame, completely disrupting my peaceful moments. This is the second time I have been treated this way. I came here today, on the day of my Latina heritage's independence, seeking a moment of peace, especially after seeing the sign on the door 🚪 that says, "WELCOME TO ALL." Unfortunately, it felt as though that welcome did not apply to me because of the color of my skin. I couldn't even finish my prayer and left feeling unwelcome and disrespected with...